From a gutter to the front door...

Oh man. I find myself stuck in the fall blues. I'm not sure there is such a term but I do. I just don't have that certain energy I used to have in the summer.

I've never enjoyed school yet I enjoy it now that I am able to study something I have passion for. Being a teacher will definitely go against my feelings towards school but it's weird how that sometimes happens for some people. I just have little motivation for things and find myself missing out on important dates throughout the week.

Life isn't about what you choose to do, it is about what you do do. I guess that may or may not make sense but I can promise you it does to me. The last few months have been extremely hard for me. Being single again after a broken engagement, my father having a massive heart attack, and not finding enough time to spend in scripture. Today was a huge step for me. I attended everything I told myself I would.

I hope I can keep this up. I understand it can fade quickly but after looking back I am so glad I wasn't stuck in my rut today and just deciding to cancel off my plans. I helped clean up the house, met some friends and family, a work party and most of all made it to Epikos which I haven't been in a several weeks. Life is good today.

Packers

Oh gosh, another loss. This one puts us at 3-3. It was a virtual lock that every analyst said that the Pack would take the NFC by storm this year. They (the Pack) would win almost every game, and have their offensive and defensive units respectively be towards the top in the League.

Well its just about the end of week 6 and no one even believes we may make the playoffs. Injuries are the main concern with our starting running back, safety, tight end, right tackle, defensive end, outside linebacker and numerous other important positions derailed. I'm not upset but bitter at how unlucky we have gotten in the injury category. For the most part there is nothing you can do about injuries and all it takes is for a certain tweak here, or a simple hit there and you find your team in the medical room.

I feel Ted Thompson needs to make a deal by this tuesday (trade deadline). If we truly want to get back on track with our hopes of a deep playoff run, we need playmakers. Earlier today we dealt for a safety we cut last year (smooth) so that will help our depth in the secondary but more needs to be done. We really need to deal for a better version of what we have in the backfield, and possibly another defensive weapon we can pair with Clay Matthews when he comes back.

The vikings come to town next sunday night where the nation can watch the drama unfold for the second straight season when the drama queen himself - Brett Favre and the Vi-queens, I mean the Vikings, take on our home grown Pack. I'd be lying if I didn't say I wasn't nervous about the game and even saying we would win. It will be a important game don't get me wrong and it will be interesting how we handle both their potent offense and defense. Let's just not get our hopes up like we did before the season...

10/10/10

Well today marks the 10/10/10 day or whatever you call it. For me though there are more things I am focused upon. Today is sunday, which are my favorite days. My absolute favorite days.

Sundays I get to relax, do really whatever I feel like. Sundays include church, football, time with family and getting ready for the week. I never work sundays, I never make major plans, and just love the idea of having one day or two a week where I can just relax, reflect, and prepare my mind for the coming week.

I used to fill my sundays with activities, events and felt myself crumbling under the anxiety of not having a day or two of rest and reflection. Anxiety sucks, trust me. All people aren't the way I am though. Some are busy-bodies and just can't think to have a day or two of relaxing and reflection though.

I write this because if you are one of those people with a lot of stress, or a lot on your mind and feel like you can't get a period of time where you can regroup maybe you need to find a sunday like me. Especially with work, school, extracurriculars, friends, family and so much more we all need our "sundays". Today isn't just 10/10/10 to me but more importantly sunday ;).

The Office

It is extremely rare that I find myself following a television series. I have only kept up with two my entire life. One being the ABC hit "LOST" and the other being the hilarious NBC hit show "The office". The office (for the one person who hasn't see it) is a comedy fiction documentary on a fake paper company set in Scranton, Pennsylvania named "Dunder Mifflin".

The boss, Michael Scott (played by Steve Carrell), is completely unfit for the job and spends most of his time either looking for a girlfriend or organizing time wasting conference meetings. The other main characters include Jim, Dwight, Andy, and Pam. The rest of the cast is rounded out by Phyllis, Creed, Stanley, Kevin, Meredith, Angela, Ryan, Kelly, Toby ("Toby is the worst" -Michael Scott), Oscar, Erin, and Darrell.

Throughout the episodes you find Dwight giving birth to a watermelon, Michael grilling his foot on a George Foreman Grill, Jim pulling countless pranks on Dwight, Toby receiving a rock for a present, and the others doing the most ridiculous things you can think of. Each one of the people within the office has their own identity which makes the show so much more fun to watch each week. It really reminds me of where I work. I have been working at the same restaurant for 6 years now and have a new found relationship with my co workers (mostly comedic) throughout watching the office because of its different story lines, the boss, and corporate bearing down on you in every way possible.

The office is starting up again this week every thursday night on NBC. If you can't catch it at night, try HULU.com for replays of the premiere and following episodes throughout the season. I love watching the office. It gives me a sense of comedy, release, relate-ability in the work place, and most of all something fun to talk about with others.

Procrastination

It's one of the things I do best. If there is one thing in this world I am good at, it's procrastinating ;). I can't lie though, I wish I wasn't so good at it. But hey, I am really good at it...

My entire life I have procrastinated. From elementary school to high school I have always been this way with projects, studying and daily assignments. It was always uncommon for me to sit down, and take care of all my work all at once. I wonder if it is my parents fault to a certain degree.

Taking 16 credits this semester, working 15 hours a week, 2 bible studies, and numerous other activities (fantasy football :) ) it really isn't a good thing to have right now. I don't even have time to focus on reading scripture on a regular basis because the work just seems to pile up. I want to be able to focus on everything I am given that means a lot to me.

I need to refocus, get my priorities straight and get this habit out of my system. Only then I will find myself feeling more organized, relaxed, and ultimately fulfilled. Fulfillment is what I am aiming for and God is the key to that. What's the one thing you need to get out of your tree of bad habits?

First Post

I've always wanted to do one of these. One of these "thingys" online. I always thought this was a great way to keep your friends and family up to date on your life and that is pretty neat. But since this is my first post I want to keep it simple and just tell you about what holds me together in my life. I walk humbly in Christ and know first and foremost I am nothing without him. My family is my second most important facet in my life. Not only are they family but some of my best friends. Their support in my life is beyond explanation and am so blessed with them. From my sister-in-laws to my nephew and nieces, I consider myself so lucky. Thirdly I would say going to school for elementary education at Concordia University is one of the most exciting goals I have going right now. My life is full of different events, activities and unexplained happenings, but it is because of my faith in God and family that keep me grounded as an individual and always know I have God to trust in every situation I find weary.